My ex remarried this past weekend. I knew it was going to happen, we have had a cordial and amicable divorce and in fact, I helped my 23-yr old daughter prepare to attend the event. So it wasn’t new news. And, I had also arranged to spend Saturday evening with some of my sacred sisters, participating in a Native American Fire Releasing Ceremony – giving me the IDEAL opportunity to let the past go (again) and focus on my gratitude and intention for the future.
And that went very well.
And Sunday I woke up feeling quite bright and lighter and pleased with myself.
And then, late Sunday evening, while hanging out on Facebook, I noticed a new item in my NewsFeed. My ex had changed his relationship status from “in a relationship” to “MARRIED.” And despite ALL the work I’ve done processing the divorce since we first decided to split in January 2009, seeing that silly status change hit me like a ton of bricks.
This morning, I woke up still thinking about it. As I went for my morning swim I asked my Guides and Angels to help me see this all differently. I did NOT want to play “the victim” – because I am NOT a victim. I know I co-created everything that led up to our decision to split. I did NOT want to play the martyr either. While some of the circumstances of our breakup could be woven into a martyr scenario – again, I cannot be a martyr if I take responsibility for co-creating the situation and circumstances.
So during my swim, I did a lot of HoOPonoPono (a Hawaiian forgiveness process) that I chanted while I swam. I felt a little better afterwards but still not as peaceful as I would ideally like.
When I got home, I checked my emails. I subscribe to many inspirational messages and one of my favorite is from Dyan Garris, Voice of the Angels. Believing in Divine Synchronicities as I do, I was not surprised to find the message below in my Inbox this morning.
Daily Channeled Message
A challenge for today – for any day, really – is to be the love. Examine where you give your power away and for what reasons. When you find yourself engaging in whatever that you don’t want to be engaging in, stop for a minute, take a deep breath and pull yourself back into the love. No matter who or what is pushing the button, try to realize that you don’t have to open the door, nor do you have to sit there and allow button pushing unless you really want to. It’s a choice for both the pusher and the pushee. Realize that you are simply living whatever it is you’ve created. That’s all. It’s very simple. Taking responsibility for perhaps inviting someone to push the button is a huge step forward. Knowing that people and things happen for a reason, and that reason is to teach you something about love, can be a very valuable piece of information. So instead of allowing someone or something to push you today, pull back into center instead. Cozy and safe, and maybe you can’t even hear the button being pushed from in there.
Pretty perfect eh?
I was asking to stay focused on the fact I ALWAYS have a choice how I FEEL. It is always my choice to change my perception. It is always my choice to hold onto my power or to give it away.
Dyan reminded me about BEING THE LOVE. I choose that as part of my mission and purpose for being here on the planet at this time. I am a Lightworker. I bring light and love where there is darkness. That’s my job. And I LOVE IT!
Today I have the power and capacity and ability and DESIRE to choose LOVE. Love for myself AND for my ex and his new wife. Love sees only Love. Better still, Love FEELS only Love. And loving myself feels a whole lot better than being a victim, or a martyr, or feeling abandoned. Today I love myself enough – to love myself! I know that sounds weird, but it’s true. And when I woke up this morning, I wasn’t consciously feeling “the love” – for myself or for my ex!
But now I do. Now I remember that I can choose how I feel and I can always choose to return to LOVE. And so can you! Regardless of the situation – we can always choose to change our thoughts, change our beliefs, change our perspectives and return to our Sacred Heart!
Man! That’s GREAT news isn’t it?
May you feel the joy of being the love that you are today and every day.
And so it is. : )