This morning, when I first began to awaken from a nice deep sleep (which is rare for me) my first thought was just how tired I was! The bed felt quite cozy and I was definitely NOT ready to get up yet!
Then the mind-chatter began along the lines of:
“Well you BETTER get up because you have that HUGE to do list!”
“How are you EVER going to get all the stuff done on that list feeling this way?”
“Come on girl – just get on with it – you’ve done it before – you know how!”
There was another parallel line of chatter that went along THESE lines:
“Well you could just stay in bed and get the rest you seem to need.”
“Some of that stuff isn’t that important anyway – it can wait.”
“Why don’t you do your meditations and prayers and then see how you feel?”
And there we were – another day at the races! EGO & Critical Parent vs. HIGHER SELF, a disconcerting morning ritual I have allowed to become a pattern. A pattern I decided to RELEASE and CHANGE in 2011. Because it is more about self-hate then it is about self-love and frankly – I’m just plain tired of the self-loathing! Finally!!
So then I begun THIS conversation with myself – this time including God, my guides, angels, and The Universe . . .
“How can I make my life easy and joyful?”
“Please show me how to make my life easy and joyful?”
“Thank you for showing me how to allow my life to be easy and joyful.”
WHAT A CONCEPT eh? It IS how our lives are meant to be you know! I choose to believe that and so now I am having the opportunity to discover where my beliefs are in conflict AND to choose again!!
I was planning on staying in bed a bit longer when I heard the Skype chirp from my office computer and realized it was probably my dear friend checking in before she was off to the hospital to pick up her partner from a pretty serious procedure he was having done. So I dis-engaged from the snuggly covers and headed across the hall to my home office and checked in with her.
After she signed off, I heard the mind chatter begin AGAIN!
“Should we go back to bed?”
– YES! YES! YES! a portion of the crowd roared – including the physical me!
“Should we get dressed and begin the day?”
– Mixed reviews to that – some said YES, come on, let’s get on with it – others were more inclined to head back under the covers, and a few offered up various items on my To-Do list for consideration!
That conversation was being held as I stood in front of my dresser/makeup/jewelry cabinet.
I looked down at it and THIS conversation began:
The critical voice started shouting . . . .
“Look at that mess! You’ve been meaning to clear that up for WEEKS now!” Just like the rest of the house – clutter everywhere!”
Another voice said . . .
“But geesh – we’re SOOO tired and there are soooo many other higher priorities.”
And then . . . .
The Still, Small Voice said . . . .
“What if you just put away those few pieces of jewelry there on the top? And maybe just threw away the little bits of trash that are up there? You could do that couldn’t you? Not really THAT much effort is it?”
Ahhhhhhh . . . . . .
I COULD do that!!! That was NOT too much to do!!
But it sure wasn’t on my agenda for the day AT ALLLLLLLLL!!!!!!! I “should” be doing this, and that, and this and that . . . .and . . . . .
Oh . . . ok . . . just get back to this little tiny task right here . . . in THIS present moment . . .
Oh . . . yes . . . . OK . . . . .
Of course, in 2-3 minutes I could see the top of the furniture again which, of course, also perked up my outlook and suddenly I noticed I was feeling a bit brighter and had a teensy weensy bit more energy also!
So I decided to get dressed instead of going back to bed. Then the dog wanted to go out front so I took her outside and while she played and took care of HER business . . . I decided to do a bit more weeding of the flower bed, a project I began a week or two ago every time I take Lola out. I had pulled up quite a large stack of weeds by the time Lola was done – and again – suddenly noticed that lovely feeling of accomplishment and satisfaction kicking in — though – weeding had NOT been on my agenda EITHER this morning!
Then, a funny thing happened . . .
I realized . . . that my morning prayers, were being answered!
There I was simply going about the day as it NATURALLY progressed (without me pushing, shoving, resisting or forcing) and it was unfolding quite nicely indeed! I wasn’t struggling to choose whether I should do THIS or THAT . . . I just did what was next and before I consciously realized it, the girl who wanted to stay in under the covers – who had no energy – and who couldn’t figure out what to do – was now dressed, had already accomplished two tasks that lifted her spirits, was given the inspiration for THIS article to write (which became the next task btw) and the day is now off to quite a fine start!!!
Don’t you just love it?????
So next time you notice your internal board room having a . . . shall we say . . . “heated discussion” . . . STOP THE TAPE!
Ask the Universe to be the mediator!
Then go do the very next thing that comes into your mind – no matter how trivial or stupid or “off task” the critical mind part of you thinks it is!
No doubt you too may end up pulling up some “weeds” from your day and feeling pretty good about it!
As your calendar year completes Dear Ones, remember that in the Realm of the Divine, there is no time. Your New Year’s resolutions, goals, intentions only have the magic that you give them at this time of year, because, in the space of “no time”, you can create a New Year ANY time!
We gently remind you of this only to suggest that there Is ALWAYS time to create anew. And while the energy of the collective consciousness of your planet is directed at the conclusion of the time space continuum you know as 2010 and looking forward to the continuum you are calling 2011, the energy of completion and creation is ALWAYS available to you.
Cycles are part of the creation process of course. There can be no ending so to speak without a beginning and vice versa. So as you review this collection of energy you call 2010, be gentle with yourselves! Everything has been and will continue to be unfolding in Divine Order. That which you feel may not have been completed “when you should” – may not have been ready to be birthed yet. Indeed, it may only have been the inspiration you needed to move you to the very next moment that WAS birthed. It was and IS perfect Dear Ones!
That which you began was begun with the spark of inspiration and combined with physical action to bring It forth and yet – still that may have been ALL that was appropriate in that particular moment. So we recommend you do not spend time releasing regrets for that which did not turn out the way you had expected or hoped, but rather, choose to acknowledge yourselves for all that did come to light, regardless of whether you believe it completed it’s cycle in the way you had imagined.
And as you are visioning into the coming year you are calling 2011, allow your visions to be sprinkled with the Divine Wisdom of your soul, your guides, your angels, all of the non-earthly realm, as well as calling on your Earth Spirits and Gaia herself to provide you the firm foundation and molten fire you will access to bring form to those visions, intentions and goals in their due course of creation.
We encourage you to believe in whatever “magic” helps you move into the Divine Creation birthing place. Fairy Godmothers, Archangels, Winged Ones, the Stone People – all can and will contribute to your Divine Creation at your slightest request.
Allow your Divine Spirit and your Sacred Heart to co-create with you, drawing on the energy of miracles and infinite possibilities. Allow those deepest yearnings and hopes and dreams to burst forth into life now! All that is required is your belief that so-called “fairy tales” do INDEED come true!
Allow yourself to trust in YOUR inherent infinite inner power – the power of your very Soul to continue its expansion as together you create the world of your dreams.
As you are Divine One, so shall you be.
Recently, in meditation, I asked “What is most useful for me to know now?”
The response I heard from my Divine Dream Team (who I respectfully refer to as The Council of The Rainbow Light) was VERY clear: ” RELAX, RELEASE, RECEIVE!”
When we’re all clenched up with tension, stress, emotion, and efforting our energy cannot flow freely enough to receive joy, peace, prosperity. It’s like being stuck on the freeway at rush hour or after a bad accident. You’ll get where you are going eventually, but you’re gonna be stuck for a while until things begin to flow properly again.
However, the good thing about our energy flow is that we have quite a bit of conscious control over it. We can always CHOOSE a more peaceful thought. We can always CHOOSE a more peaceful perspective. Even in the traffic example, for instance, you can choose to bitch and moan about being stuck, or you can use it as an opportunity to send prayers and blessings to every person in every car on that highway. You can be sure that the latter is going to make your journey a lot more pleasant than the former!
Frequently we get so caught up in our daily physical lives that we don’t realize we are “over-cooked”. We just keep going and going like the proverbial Energizer Bunny ™ until we find ourselves run down and completely out of “juice.” That’s not an ideal state for us on ANY level – physical, emotional or spiritual.
When we are depleted on ANY level of our being, it begins a ripple effect to all of the other levels. In the 12-step programs they have an acronym called H.A.L.T. It stands for never get too Hungry, Angry, Lonely or Tired, because, those are the most common feelings that lead to dysfunctional behaviors.
Clearly you could also add a few words to that list like Anxious, Fearful, Stressed, Worried and Busy! All of those words ALSO have a tendency to open us to the ego’s perspective – which usually promotes its position that you are “not good enough,” rather than your Higher Self perspective which is ALWAYS that All Is Well and that You are Whole, complete and perfect just as you are.
The point here is that if we really want to allow joy, peace and prosperity into our lives – then we have to make room for it – and we can’t make room for it we are over-busy, over-anxious, over-hungry, etc. Our human bodies just don’t work that way!
You can choose to develop a habit of checking in with yourself. Stop for a minute during the day and ask yourself “what do I need right now to feel peace?” Make it a priority to just take a deep breath and exhale all the stress several times a day. Or picture the Cosmic Wet Vac sucking up all the fear. Or mentally or literally go take a shower– and picture all the busy-ness going down the drain with the water. Any of those practices will give you a chance to allow the energy to flow freely and restore your peace and joy which are pretty much pre-requisites to prosperity!
Go ahead . . . . do it now . . . . even if you think you don’t need it! You sooo deserve it and will undoubtedly feel better for it!
Ahhhhhh . . . feel better right?
So you are sitting in your home or office, you know there is “stuff” to be done and you don’t want to do it. More than you don’t WANT to do it . . . you are scared to do it. Maybe not scared to do the chores, but scared to do the “something” that will bring a little more light into your life, bring a little more joy, or expand your beingness.
What the hell am I talking about you ask?
OK . . . here’s MY example.
I’m a business owner. As much as I don’t want to be a business OWNER – I’d far rather just help others with my intuitive gifts and coaching, I AM a business OWNER and there are business OWNER-type things that need doing.
Like providing great content on my website.
And yes – there is divine right timing and inspired action and all that that comes into play – but this particular post – is about FEAR. Paralyzing, I-am-NOT-going-to-take-that-next-action-step, FEAR. Beyond logic, beyond reason, beyond all the “knowingness” I possess . . . overwhelming all of that (and yes because I am allowing it) . . . is FEAR – like a great big vat of molasses that I’ve fallen into and can’t find the ladder or a rope or a miracle way out.
So sometimes, (I hate to admit it out loud though) I allow the fear to take over my [business] life in subtle ways or not so subtle ways. But mostly – I allow it to freeze me into IN-action . . . ME – the great coach – ME – the great teacher – ME the student of 30+ years of metaphysical teachings . . . ME . . . stuck in a vat of molasses.
What am I going to do about it?
I was listening to a Sunday Blessing presented by Glenda Green recently and I heard (in my mind) . . . “picture this Dear One . . .”
They continued . . . “Visualize your fear as if it was a lot of goopy stuff inside of you that can get sucked out by a Cosmic Wet Vac!” . . . (Yes . . . that’s what I heard . . . “they” have a sense of humor and speak to me in MY kind of language so that I “get” it!)
At the same time, I heard another voice in me telling me that the fear is only illusion so picturing it like goop is making an illusion real – and I understood that – but at that moment – my Highest Self was NOT in the driver’s seat and that thick goopy molasses like stuff WAS . . . so I went back and pictured the goopy stuff and tried to push it into the center of my imagination – picturing my kitchen – and all this goop in the center of my kitchen floor . . .
And then they said “We will turn on the wet vac now . . . your job is to make sure that YOU are willing to let go of all the goopy stuff . . . and open all the cupboards and closets and secret hiding places . . . so that WE can suck it all out for you . . . ”
And so . . . .
That’s what I did.
Mentally, I opened up all my closets, cupboards, drawers and lifted the skirt under the bed. I opened the door to the attic, to the garage, to the storage boxes buried in the back of the closet …. And I “allowed” the wet vac to suck up all the goop.
And then I heard . . . “now go write . . . ”
Excuse me? Go write? Shouldn’t I just sit here and wallow a little more? Shouldn’t I assimilate this experience? Shouldn’t I distract myself with some chore or another?
And they said . . .”If what you fear most is “doing” then NOT doing is gonna make more goop isn’t it? And didn’t you just ask us to wet vac that crap up?”
Uh . . . . oops . . . . yes . . . . Yes, I did.
So here I am.
Writing this blog post. Because in order for me to be of maximum service to YOU, my website needs content for you! Content I was afraid to write because it would put me out there for you to judge. And you might judge me harshly. And then I’d crumble into a pile of dirt that needed to be swept away under the rug.
Now that is certainly “small me” thinking. The Higher Self me knows better. The Higher Self knows that all of us have gifts to share with each other and one of mine is my willingness to put my “stuff” out there because it might, maybe, help someone else.
Because I’m probably NOT the only human that is afraid to take the “next” step whatever that means for them. Because I’m probably NOT the only human that has procrastinated because of Fear. Because I’m probably NOT the only human that gets caught up in her “small” self . . .
Taking that next step even when we think we are stuck in molasses . . . that’s called “courage” in some circles. It’s called “faith” in some circles. It’s called “trust” in some circles. And sometimes, sometimes we just have to get up off our asses and DO IT . . . that is IF we want what lies where that “next step” will take us.
So do me a favor will you please?
If this post has rung a bell for you will you please make a comment below? Let me know whether it has helped you? You know what . . . let me know even if you disagree . . . . because . . . by YOU taking the action to write YOUR comment . . . it may just help another human being . . . . and I know it will help me.
Dear One –
Relax, breathe and remember who you truly are! This is not a big deal to us – we do not need you to prove anything to us! Those [critical] voices are not of the Light child. Yes, that’s better – breathe in the Truth Dear One. Breathe in the Light of Truth. Allow that to refresh every cell, to refresh the space between the cells, to activate the Light of Truth within your DNA. Breathe in the Light Child. Breathe out all that is not who you really are.
Allow. Simply allow. Allow your magnificence to unfold. It does not have to be a difficult road for you you know. It is for some, but the biggest, most painful difficulties you create yourselves, in your resistance to go to that which is unavoidable for you [awakening fully]. While yes, of course, you have free will – you know your destiny Dear One because you agreed to it! So some have painful experiences in their journeys as Lightworkers for many reasons – but what you fear will be “thrown at you” is unnecessary. It is unnecessary for all of you – it is just each person’s resistance from their human side – and the release of the resistance is sometimes perceived as painful by fellow Lightworkers.
What we are trying to say and you are finding it a challenge to translate [in this message] is the degree of “pain” or “drama” in becoming fully “aware” is equal to – NOT greater than – your own resistance. So you are creating your own pain Dear Ones. That is not of us of course. You may choose to “drop the rock” anytime you like Beloved. We are here for you. We are here to help you fly. We are here to boomerang back whatever energy you send our way. So as you know all too well, as you feel fear, fear is what is mirrored back to you. But equally true – as you feel joy, peace and love – it TOO is mirrored back to you!
All the while we are hoping you have had enough. Yes there is hope in this vibration and more importantly there is True Vision – because even while you are only able to see and feel your resistance and fear – we see well past that and we always see your True Light. This is on you Dear One! Let it [the fear and resistance] go and when you please allow yourself to once again feel the support we have for you and know always that we love you no matter what your ego may try to persuade you to the contrary.
And so it is.
This new moon energy is quite a mixed bag of feelings and sensations for you. We feel your excitement and happy anticipation of new blessings as they expand in the ethers on their way to your physical manifestation. Yet we also feel the energy of past wounds and longing for change.
And we want you to know that it is ALL good Dear One. Every bit of it! What we clap our hands in glee about watching you, is your willingness to HAVE the experiences! Especially of late we notice how you are purposefully stepping out into new venues, new activities and all for the most part with hopeful anticipation of discovering something wonderful.
This is a lovely path to be on Dearest because it holds the vibration of the future while still acknowledging the gifts of the present. It says “I am here right now and this is an OK place to be AND I am also ready to receive new, exciting and interesting gifts and treasures.” You can feel the energy of that bubbling and simmering in a big pot with orgasmic aromas emanating from the pot – just like when you are cooking some magnificent creation on your stove. You know that it takes time for all the flavors to meld together and create a dish that is greater than the sum of its individual ingredients . . . that you stir in love, and joy and excitement about how delicious it will be not just to taste yourself, but to share with others that you love.
That my dear earth angel is what your vortex looks and feels and smells like from our perspective right now. It is soo full of goodness and yumminess and sweetness and light. It’s simmering and carmelizing and infusing with love and light, just waiting for that EXACT moment when it is PERFECT and everything is divinely aligned, ready to be served up to you! We assure you that it is very close to that moment right now.
And we suggest to you Dear One that you continue to stir the pot ever so gently from time to time. Take the lid off and breathe in the heady aromas of your heart’s desires about to manifest, know with every fibre of your being how much you will enjoy the perfect outcome – the great joy, the great gratitude, the great pleasure in the sharing of your bounty.
It is SOOO perfect Dear One. And All is SOOO very well!
We are so excited for you!
Dear One –
You and many others – including many of your friends – are experiencing a big shift energetically. This shift is bringing things up into your conscious awareness that will be of great benefit to the individual and in turn to humanity as it is shared thru the healing and teaches of you and your colleagues.
The light vibration of your circle – and others – is very high and much needed. We encourage each of you individually and collectively to continue to engage in activities and inventions that bring you much joy. The vibration of joy carries with it bio particles of Light that are like tiny powerful explosions – infusions of love, peace, joy and hope – that will shower out upon all of those that each of you come in contact with and ripple out further as those people then connect with their families, friends and loved ones. This collective energy is very powerful. Each of you carry a component that when gathered together, synergistically expands exponentially.
As an individual – continue to focus on the expansion of your intentions – noticing where your actions are out of alignment with specific intentions and setting the intention to bring all of your actions into alignment with manifesting your highest love, light, prosperity and joy.
This is, indeed, a unique and special time for all of you who are open to its wisdom and willing to implement the actions that will spring forth from your inspirations. Do not miss this boat Dear Ones!